So lately i’ve been pretty confused about a lot of things.
My protector stopped protecting me,
My friends have stopped understanding,
I can’t understand why everything is so complicated, and no one thinks the way I do.
- By the way, i’m sorry if I annoy you a lot :/
I can’t seem to think clearly about what I used to believe in either, it’s like all of my reasons suddenly became really cloudy, and their strength faded into a tiny shred of fact.
I guess i’m just not quite sure what I should be pushing for,
Like I have to drop my mind, and pick up the parts that I actually need.
But i’m scared that if I do that, which is what’s best for me,
Then what happens if i’m not me anymore.
Now see, I know for a fact that everyone in this world is special and unique for their own reasons, whether that be their mind or their talents.
I also know for certain that i’m special because of how I think.
I act the way I do, I think the way I do, and most importantly I act on what I think, (the way I do.)
So what happens if I start cleansing my mind and I wash out what’s important?
I know that I always wish for a normal life, a lot,
But I think about it a second later and I don’t want a shred of a normal family to come near me,
I’m pretty certain that that is what has made me the way I am, and I don’t have any talent at all really,
So if you take away my difference, I’d just be some normal boring girl.
& Nothing ever happens to the normal boring girl, (this isn’t a movie).
Anyways, that’s my mind right now.