I’m really sorry that you think i’m immature or strange, it’s just that I always say things I don’t mean because I can’t think of anything else to say. Sometimes i’ll do something, then the next day I would never dare because it’s rude or indecent. I can be different people quite quickly, I always mean what I say I just let things slip when i’m nervous. I guess i’m really scared of being myself sometimes, I want to show everyone & I don’t feel shy, just nervous. See I trust myself enough to not care what other people think, but at the very same time, i’m shitting my pants that the people I care about the most will see me in a way that they just can’t deal with anymore. I’m always losing those people, so it’s a neverending battle.